Today and yesterday have been a rough day for me thinking about Amber and wondering where and what she would be doing, married, kids, etc. I still have a hard time trying to figure out why God would take such a young, beautiful, happy person and I reflect back on what my friend had told me the day we all found out she died, he just hugged me and told me the reason why is because God needs kind spirits who bring happiness and love to those around them and it has just kind of stuck with me because I had never met anyone who is as positive, energetic, and always happy as Amber was.
Amber and I were roomates and we shared a room right before she died and we had so much fun together. We would stay up until 3 and 4 in the morning eating cereal and looking at bridal magazines picking out our favorite flowers, dresses, decorations, etc. and we had always said that we would be neighbors and our kids would grow up together. We had so much fun being goofy and we always got along. I also remember when we were about 13 and we had a big sleepover party and we each (Darcy, Sophie, Amber, and I) brought a garbage sack of our clothes and we did photo shoots wearing each others clothes and having fashion shows. We would also have numerous amounts of bake sales to save our money to go swimming at the innertubes. Only naming a few of my favorite memories, the list could go on. Reflecting back to the last day we all saw Amber we all went Country Line Dancing for hours and we had so much fun. There was a balcony at top where we all posed and took tons of pictures and then Amber was meeting her boyfriend in Mesquite so she left and the group of guys she was with decided to take there truck down a dirt road and "rally" it. Amber always hated wearing her seat belt so she would always pretend to put it on and then slowly put it back. The driver of the truck ( 16 year old who just met her that night) hit a dirt ramp and the truck flipped and rolled causing Amber to be ejected from the truck. Everyone else came out fine but they couldn't find Amber so as they were looking they realized the truck landed on her and they had to lift it off of her. The guys not realizing exactly where they were had a hard time explaining to the ambulance how to get there, it took them an hour and it was obviously to late.
I woke up the next morning with Amber not there but she spent the night in Mesquite a lot so I didn't think anything of it. I went to work and was there a full 8 hours before anyone called me to say I needed to get home as soon as I could. I remember entering the house with about 10 people crying and neither of them could pull it together to tell me. Heather just gave me a hug and told me that Amber was in an accident....me hoping for the best asked if she was okay and then she said no she didn't make it. I instantly fell to my knees in shock that I couldn't even cry. It has been 9 years ago today since she died but I can't help but get really sad every year at this time because she was such a good friend. There is a reason for everything, that is the only answer that makes sense. Miss You Amber!!!
I love all the holidays, I am just suprised how fast they are sneeking up on us. Tayler will be starting Kindergarten within weeks and Naomi is going to pre-school I can't believe it. Holidays always make me go back and reflect on how lucky I am to have such an amazing husband and how blessed we are to have our two beautiful healthy little girls......there the best!!!
